Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Memories

01.07.06

"Take a picture, it'll last longer". I have often heard this line being recited on the television, be it in movies, dramas, or even cartoons. What this line basically means is that a photograph of an event would last longer, it would even last a lifetime. However, as we all know that as we age, our memory tends to fail us. No doubt this is true, there might even be scientific proof on it, but to me, there are three things in life that we should always remember to hold on to and never to give up on. They are hope, faith, and memories.

Many people have both hope and faith to keep them going in life but only a handful remembers to keep their memories. What exactly are memories? Some say that memories are the thoughts we have inside out heads, the time we spent in the past doing all sorts of things. Some also say that memories are the moments spent in our lives that are worth remembering. No one knows what the exact definition of 'memories' is, not counting the ones found in dictionaries. Amongst the many interpretations, I like to believe that there are two types of memories - memories kept in the mind and memories kept in the heart.

Putting it in my own words, memories kept in the mind are the more physical memories. A few examples of events that fall under this class would be school life, birthdays, camps, and even accidents. All these events are pretty general. Of course each and every one of them has had an impact on one's life. To illustrate this, the memories of school life would be more fresh in the mind of a young college student. He or she would be able to remember how life was back in secondary school, or even his or her first day way back in primary school. The point here is that memories kept in the mind are more of activities, ups and downs, or the learning experiences that one used to go through.

On the other hand, memories kept in the heart are more emotionally-tied. Some of the personal things in life such as anniversaries, family and friends, or to group them all together, our loved ones would most probably be part of the memories kept in the heart. These are the type of memories that we never want to lose, the kind that we would want to remember for the rest of our lives. Why is this so? It is human nature for someone to never want to be lonely, no matter how shy or quiet they may seem. There will be days when one is all alone, with no companions by one's side. This is the time when they will take out memories tucked away in their hearts, because just knowing and just remembering all they have gone through in life, plus the people they have gone through it with, the loneliness that was once there is no longer a disturbance to their lives.

One similarity that both memories from the mind and memories from the heart share is that they can be conjured up by our six senses. Going back to the line "Take a picture, it'll last longer", whenever we see a photograph of an event from the past, memories will start to flood our thoughts. The mixed emotions run through our veins. Similarly, say after ten years leaving high school you meet an old friend. The very first thing that would definitely come to mind would be the good old days back then. Furthermore, even the simple smell of sambal belacan might remind you of the times you used to live with your grandmother in the village in Muar. It is amazing how our senses manage to aid us in keeping our memories alive.

Unfortunately, there are some people who might think that there is no point in keeping our memories alive. "The past is the past. Let it go". They are wrong. By having our memories close to us, we are able to remember the mistakes we made in the past, the lessons we learnt from the past. Keeping us in line in life, our memories are just like a guidebook with no page numbers. It is capable of being real flexible, and at the same time provides us with all that we need. Armed with memories of the past, we would less likely make the same mistakes and not go down the wrong road again.

'The past', 'old times', 'experiences', 'life', and 'moments' are all words associated with the word 'memories'. We are only human. We only live our life on this planet once. Therefore, we should be living life to its fullest, with no regrets whatsoever. As stated earlier, as we age, our memory tends to fail us. Hence, the memories that we have with us today, both the memories kept in the mind as well as the memories kept in the heart should be something we appreciate. They should keep us going on in life. They should be remembered. They should be treasured. They should be cherished, for at the end of the day, our memories may be all we have to live by.

Just for you, li (:

Friday, June 06, 2008

wishing i was the one

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And the date approaches me slowly.
Day by day, it creeps on.
26 and counting.

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What have I been up to?

Well, after Wesak the Midyear Examinations ended of course. And right after that was none other than the joint camp of KRS and WWSG of SMKBUD(4). Held at Raudhah Camp, Teluk Nipah, Pangkor Island, Perak Darul Ridzuan, it's more commonly known as the P.O.P. Camp - Pirates Of Pangkor.

Four days and three nights were all we had together on that island. Ashamed to say that personally, I was not 100% involved in the organizing and the running of the camp. Therefore, I can't express my feelings for the camp as a whole as well as the participants can (they obviously totally enjoyed the camp) - Not to say that I didnt, but honestly the main reason to why I was looking forward to POP was cause of the venue - Pulau Pangkor. Always wanted to go to the different Pulaus in Malaysia. Now I can strike one off my non-existant "List Of Islands To Go".

No doubt the games/team-building activities throughout the camp made the participants grow in a sense that I-have-no-idea-how-to-explain-here. A few things that still linger in my mind are like the beach - it is such a wonderful feeling to have the warm (if not scorching hot) sand beneath your kaki ayam. What else do you find on a beach? The ocean waves of course. It's like hot sand, cold water. Hot sand, cold water. Nice la the feeling - that's all I can say. Also remember the first night when everything was quiet, there was a sound. Thought something dropped - maybe a tree branch or something. Mana tau the next day only i realised that our campsite is just like what, roughly 100m away from the beach? It was the sound of crashing waves on the shore. Pretty relaxing actually.

And of course, noone'll ever forget the jungle trekking we had on the third day. Was sleeping in the challet when I received a call asking us to get up for jungle trekking. I went back to sleep. A while later, there was knocking on the door. Had no choice but to get up, wash up, put on SLIPPARS and go for jungle trekking (you can see how much I was lazy go at first). Anyways, after trekking for about half an hour or so, someone had to do their business. So thinking that it was an oppurtunity to go back to the campsite, I was overjoyed. Mana tau the fella was willing to just do it behind all those palm trees - with the dog, Jo or Joe sniffing around. We were far behind the rest but managed to catch up with em soon after. Thinking that it was all gonna end soon, we were wrong. Yes, you can read on how teruk/susah the journey was from someone else's blog, from the lack of water, to the steep slides, to the no-roots-to-grab-on-to, to the thorns everywhere. I even experienced a few slips myself. One word: Challenging.

One last thing that really got my attention in this camp. The MK. Yes, is has been way too long since we had a really happening MK. With the joint forces of KRS and WWSG, the last night was definitely one to remember. Their performances, mainly sketches, could really crack you up. Really. No, I'm serious. Even I was laughing together with everyone else. HAHA. At the end of the night, all 37 of the participants sat in a big circle around a humungous campfire. Talking, singing songs, just sharing the moment and enjoying the atmosphere of each and everyone's company at the time. I'm sure most of em, if not all of em really liked that (except for the one who was already asleep in his tent).

That about sums it up for what I have to blog about POP. Of course, if I remember anything else, I'll just add it in here in the future.

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What's new and happening lately?

Noone said the journey towards KS was ever gonna be easy. And it aint. Logbooks. Logbooks. Logbooks. I am ashamed to say that I havent really touched mine for quite some time. Just recently, I touched up a little on my Kemahiran (a number of parts I cant really do much about at the moment). And yup, my Kegiatan's jumpstarting once more after the attempt last December (or was it early this year? - cant remember).

So what's left? Let's see.. Maju, Jaya, 8 Kegemaran, Kemahiran, Kegiatan, Perkhidmatan, and Personal Log (400+400?!). Am I missing out anything else? Right. My Jayadiri's definitely not thick enough and my Ekspidisi's Peta Keseluruhan has gone missing since I dunno when.

I should be logging now, not blogging.

One another note, I've recently learnt how to use Photoshop (main reason: for Kegiatan). Finally. Looking forward to play around with it more and also maybe come up with something nice and worthwhile.

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What happened today?

There was lunch at Nando's. Then Prom Night at TGV. Overall rating: 8/10. After that it was the ending of The Superhero Movie as well as the beginning of Indiana Jones. Got potonged cause had to go Chem tuition. I dont know a thing bout redox reaction. Reduction, oxidation, reducing agent, oxidizing agent. ??!?

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What's coming up?

Let's see, next Thursday I'll be leaving this country, never to return. Well, for three weeks, at the very least. Yup, my elder sister's graduating and she's gonna be a pharmacist. Gonna meet her in London if I'm not mistaken. Then we'll be travelling around a few countries in Europe. Ending the three weeks off with her graduation ceremony in Glascow, Scotland. We'll be heading straight home after that but I think she's gonna be staying there another month or so (to be with her friends? I dont know).

Three whole weeks. Do you know how much school/tuition work I'm gonna be missing on? Alot. Somemore it's after the midyear holidays. Teachers will definitely be spamming homework on us. I seriously pray that after getting back in early July I'll be able to cope as well as catch up on the syllabus (I'm not even doing all that well right now). Not forgetting the logbooks that I havent even started on. Whoa. Things are gonna get real tough from July onwards. Real tough. Yes, really.

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What's with this song?

Honestly, I couldn't really decide on what new song to put on my blog. Yes, there are a few songs stuck in my head such as Heartbeat by Scouting For Girls. But for some reason I just feel that the melody doesnt quite suit my mood at the moment. (note: the melody). Then of course there's Jason Mraz with I'm Yours and also Jesse McCartney with Leaving. Plus, local music like Malaysian Artistes For Unity's Here In My Home is nice and Sailor's Whoopie is cathcy. Then I came across none other than Lifehouse. Hanging By A Moment or Whatever It Takes? That was the question. Well, you can hear for yourself which I ended up with (though it's a different version).

Wow, this is really a long post, with no pictures. Thanks for reading, will update soon. Okay, maybe not so soon (probably in July).

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Tick tock. Time slips away.
Everything does too, just as easily.
I'm hanging by a moment here with you.


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